We're closing in on the end of September, and I'm still jobless. It's OK.

I mean, it's not OK, but it's still OK, y'know? It's incredibly frustrating to not be on the eligible to hire list in my city, meaning I can't get a job within the city bounds. I've been keeping my eyes on the boards that are on the periphery of Toronto, but the jobs that I'm qualified for are just not being posted. In the past month and a half, two have been posted that met my qualifications, and I've applied to both. I did not get an interview for either.

I say it's OK because in the grand scheme of things, it is. God is waiting to put me where He needs me, and I'm willing to wait for that. He knows me better than I know myself, and I trust Him more than I trust myself, too. Not having a job has allowed me to register in a course that will make me more marketable and attractive to hiring principals than other applicants. Starting Monday I will be taking an Additional Basic Qualification (ABQ) course in Intermediate English. This means that I will be able to teach English to students in grades 7-10. I intend to take the Senior English course eventually. Many high school teachers have Additional Qualifications (AQs), but not many have more than two Basic Qualifications, since you need to have two Basic Qualifications ('teachables'), in order to do high school teacher education in Ontario. I'm lucky that I took so many different courses in my undergrad and 'extra' year, because those courses have allowed me to have multiple basic qualifications!

Anyway, as I said, the course starts Monday. I'm looking forward to it.

I'm a little down tonight, because I'm feeling lonely and anxious. I'm worried and/or disturbed by some things, but they'll pass. It's going to be OK.

xo Heather